Of today's appointments, those of my clients that weren't already bankrupt, I sent bankrupt. Oy, vey. Now I'm briefly revisiting old squees and reading Rikku/Paine slash before I put Natla and Lara into compromising positions again.

Start weight: 211.2 lbs
Current weight: 196.68 lbs

Weight loss to date: 14.52 lbs. 3.08 lbs of that weight loss was this week's. Whee!

Another whole weekend without writing a word of prose.

I did, however, produce some Lara/Natla preslash which I uploaded on my dA. I also fiddled around with Maya all of Saturday and have Lara all mapped, except for the elevated bumps on the bump maps that hopefully Bunneh will be able to offer some advice on. Started defining bones, too, but it's stupidly difficult, and will take FOREVER.

Considering simply doing stop-motion animation with frames from XNA, using live video for timing guidance. It will be harder to make it smooth, but I'm not sure I won't lose more time trying to make Maya do what I want it to.

I also bought AWESOME heart-shaped sunnies. I went to try and take some photos of them, but I looked fucking awful in all of the photos, so you don't get to see (I bet you're absolutely fucking heartbroken about that, as well XD ).

Why aren't I skinny yet? I am annoyed. I have been following 1200-1500 calories a day religiously and exercising for a couple of months now. HOW LONG MUST I WAIT. Weigh in at the gym tomorrow, too.

I AM GOING TO GROW OLD AND DIE BEFORE I FINISH APPLYING TEXTURES, BUMP MAPS AND LIGHTING MAPS TO LARA AND INDIVIDUALLY TOGGLING THEM IN MAYA. *beats head against the wall*

My brain is fucked from work; one of my clients is being absolutely EATEN ALIVE by a law firm who's doing all this illegal shit to her, knowing that she can't afford a lawyer to fight their actions and knowing that legal aid won't touch property law. I've been grinding my brain all day trying to think of a way to keep her in her house, but I don't think it's going to happen. She's going to be thrown out on the street :(

Here is a list of things I've done:

1. Put a new graphic (posed and rendered by yours truly) at the top of my LJ. Yes, I am tragic.

2. Updated my Deviantart with some serious Natla love.


Here is a list of things I did not do:

1. Get my fucking act together and post any more fic. It would be 20 minutes of work at the most, but I just headslap at the thought of it today.

2. Get Maya to work.

3. Anything else at all constructive.

Now I will go to sleep, so I can get up early and waste some time at the gym.

Awesome workout this morning: jogged for a while, really pushed myself and generally felt really fit and well. I've decided that by the end of February, I'm going to be able to do 10 chin ups in a row. That's a pretty lofty aspiration, given than I struggle painfully to do one at the moment.

My burn has scabbed over and is crusty and itchy. It's uncomfortable, but itchy is about 1000000X better than constantly throbbing and stinging.

Struggling on the fic front at the moment. I have two very nearly finished chapters of AWOL, another chapter of Rebuilt Anew and a standable Natla/Amanda (God, Natla is difficult to write). that are all about 95% finished. But I just can't get myself over the line with them! I did, however, manage to produce a new icon, which I'm using for everything.

This me at my goal weight a few years back (I'm about 135 here) - I DEFINITELY don't want to get any thinner than this, or I'm going to end up looking like Legend!Amanda.



This is the weight I plan to be in October, barring any injuries or unexpected complications which prevent me from kicking my ass daily in the gym.

:D My flesh is coming off. I feel like a zombie.

Amanda's put on a lot of weight since Legend. Comfort eating after Lara killed her boyfriend?

On the actual getting a hobby front - I'm downloading a HUGE 3D animation program that can accept meshes from XNA. So, uh. If you thought porn stills were bad, just wait until you get ANIMATED PORN. Oh, and LOTS of emo music videos with dramatic staring and soleful expressions. I LOVE YOU, LARA!

This weekend while I was housebound, I made awesome Lara/Amanda porn using the TRU models. Porning is so much fun! Click on the picture to see it fullsize!

Then, I read through AWOL, fixed as many glaring grammatical errors as I could, and finally managed to repost it. Then I wrote some more of it, and now I'm agonizing over whether I should post it and incur Jordy's love/wrath.

Then I resqueed over Kurtis/old!Lara.

Then I started wondering if I should slash Natla with Amanda or Lara. Then I figured the Seventh Age needed three rulers, so they should just have a big girlslash orgy. Then I stared at a blank document for an hour, and then I watched The Biggest Loser, and didn't end up writing ANY of it.

Then I watched all the TRU cutscenes in French and drooled over everyone's French voices (except Amanda's, which makes me want to both cry and gag, possibly simultaneously: think Marge Simpson on helium). The French do such AWESOME voice matching, everyone sound like the people they sound like XD

And then rocks fell and everyone died.

Start weight: 211.2 lbs
Current weight: 199.76 lbs. (UNDER 200!)

Weight loss to date: 11.44 lbs. And this latest 2.3 lbs is despite the fact I've been housebound and exerciseless for a week. Yay!

WELCOME TO MY BLISTERY BACK.



IT HURTS ME. HOT THINGS BURN, YOU KNOW. PAY PARTICULAR ATTENTION TO THE FACT WHEN THE BLISTERS (THE WHOLE ORANGE BIT FEELS LIKE A GEL PAD) POP, THEY REVEAL RAW SKIN UNDERNEATH.

CODEINE, WHY AM I ALLERGIC TO YOU? lsekrjglerjhglakejrhglaeughaejkrhgiluhIUHOIUWHOLIUWRGHLIUHWLIRUGH

FUCK OF FF.NET FOR HAVING A 9 MB UPLOAD LIMIT.

SOME OF US WRITE BIG STORIES, OKAY? Geeeez. I tried to upload an edited version of AWOL (plus a couple of new chapters appended to it), and it kept giving me fucking ERRORS. I am NOT spending 10 years splitting up the file again. Growl! *submits a rude complaint*

Aside from some of my back which blistered (and is still untouchable), my shoulders have now stopped hurting. Can I just say...

HOW MUCH FUCKING FUN IS PEELING YOUR SKIN AFTER SUNBURN!?

Hours of entertainment, right there on my shoulders.

This is what happens when I'm housebound and can't go anywhere.

Later I also tried to give myself goth makeup, but I accidentally ended up with liquid eye-liner all down my face. Turns out I FAIL at being a goth. I will hold a gun at Amy and force her to turn me into a goth when I come to the UK XD

( Anna is STILL a camwhore )

Just watched Toy Story 2 en Français, and I have to say, I seriously think Bo Peep needs to take a fricken hike. Jessie/Woody ftw!

Also, I still love the lesbian subtext in When She Loved Me. Such a beautiful, tragic song.

Eeee, someone made a gift art (NSFW!) for me on deviant art ♥ ♥ It makes me all warm and fuzzy inside!

Nearly fainting while housemate VERY GENTLY tries to put aloe vera on my back = FAIL.

"Oh, you're starting to blister on this side!" = OWWWWWWWW

Again, words can't express this pain. It's extreme. If anything touches my skin, I literally see stars and the wind gets driven out of me.

ASH, YOU ARE NEVER ON MSN!

Also, I have been staggering around all day like my health bar is flashing. I may accidentally have (oh so intelligently) given myself a touch of heat stroke yesterday, as today I was feeling giddy and vague and slightly nauseous.

Can't go to gym owing to fact I can't lift my arms above my shoulders because:

1. I will faint.

2. My sunburnt skin will pull and I will cry like a small child.

3. My pecs are KILLING me from all the ocean swimming I did on Australia day.

4. Heart has been pounding all day. Can't explain this, but it will probably go away without further investigation.